mimieileen

How about team Who Gives A Shit ? Orr better yet, team Shut The Fuck Up. :] I'm so sick of waking up in the morning, going out to get some Mini-Cinni's from Burger King and seeing stupid Jacob and Edward on their doors. And the hermaphrodite Kristen Stewart on their menu. I don't want to be a cannibal, I don't want to give a dyke a blow job.

First of all, if I wanted to see a transvestite (kstew) act, i'd just watch Rocky Horror Picture Show. Where the acting is at LEAST believable. Second, the guy who plays Jacob is NOT HOT. He's got a very hot body, but his face..? His nose reminds me of the Count Chocula cereal. Finally, Edward? Edward does not kill people, and glitters. He is not a vampire; he is a fairy.

So in the long run, if you have anything to say about Twilight that's positive, don't say it to me. i'll laugh in your face and walk away kthxbye.

PS - yes i have read the damn novels. I have seen the movie (not new moon & for free) online. They both are pure shit. I admit the book is a tid better, but still barf on the world of literature.

I speak English, German and very VERY broken French. And I figured it was pretty fun how you get to cuss in three languages, so why not share the "love"? :]

German/dutch --> english

Eikel - slang for dick. literal translation is 'acorn'

teil - slang in german for dick. literal translation is 'part'

Scheiße - shit in german

Ficken Sie - fuck in german

Weibchen - slang for bitch. literal translation is 'female'

I'll add more later :] And before you ask, I get the fancy lettering because my keyboard has a chose; english or german....soo...yeah :'D ?!

You know lately I've found myself hating half the people on the internet who go around pretending life is one big happy circus. Where the clowns won't come and kidnap you from your house and where everyone is your damn friend.

Let's go ahead and be realistic. It's not. Life is hell. No one is that damn petty 24/7. And if you are I give you major props for being able to keep such a happy atmosphere honestly. But be truthful with yourselves for one minute and think, are you really happy every moment of your life? I just despise those who get on the internet and proclaim that life is good, it's great and happy! Something magical is going to happen to you today omfg! No, it's not. So I've decided to not become the very thing I hate, I'm going to be dead honest on the type of person I am.

I am a cynical, naive, pessimistic, masochistic, cold heartless bitch who probably will never honestly give a flying shit about you or your little crush. I hate half of the celebrities living and breathing just because they're alive. I hate humanity altogether. And yet I want to seek a career in Forensic Psychology which would help to save and further humanity. That being one of my many hypocritical traits, I'll be honest. I'm a hypocrite and I have learned to live with it so far. Everytime I catch myself doing it though I often beat myself up over it.

So why pretend life is dandy? My friend flew out a damn car window and the cops aren't doing shit for his family because they are middle class citizens who can "fend for themselves". They just lost their son, like that means nothing anymore. A woman was stabbed in her house and her daughter was left with her neck slit open and left to bleed to death. How can you call life happy when shit like that is going on? I'll tell you why, your little liars.

Life is fucked up, deal with it. Anywho, go to wwww.wearebetterthanthat.com in the mean time. It's a story on what recently happened that sparked this whole hate-filled speech. Light a candle in memory of the poor mother and daughter who lost their lives.

"hey, on a completely random note, have you ever considered or ever had any desire to be in playboy?  i don't recall you mentioning it so i'm guessing not.  but i was talking to one of their photographers earlier this week because he needed the phone number of a model and he was telling me how they are starting to go in a different direction than the usual bleach blonde, fake boob playmates...they are going for a more girl next door, natural look these days.  anyway, it didn't occur to me at the time but I came across your profile and it kinda hit me that you pretty much fit that description   so i guess if you have any interest let me know and i'll see what you would need to do.  if not, that's cool.  i just figured i'd throw that out there.  you never know who's up for what   haha.  anyway talk to you soon.

-rob"

So that was what I logged on to Model Mayhem to be greeted with. I'm not sure what to say, since I honestly don't want to do nude shoots at all. But that's a pretty big offer in some ways I guess. It's flattered in a way, if you look at it form the "hey we think your boobs are hot enough, let's hope you shaved the forest now LETS GO." sorta way. Then again I feel that things like Playboy and maxim degrade women in certain aspects so I'm not about to go and do it.

But still none the less flattering in a way xD

If you don't feel you've done nay of what I'm about to write, then it's not about you so don't go bitching or whining at me for posting this. It needs to be said. Your generation isn't the genius it thinks it is.

You kids don't know shit about the world. I'm only eighteen and even I know that I don't know jackshit about the world. Between my mother's mental breakdowns and constant withdrawl from the world, my father's alcoholism and detached anger towards me, the inevitable divorce, the family and friends I have lost; I keep smiling, learning, working.

I never once bitched about the small things in life. The only time in life I ever broke down and said anythin I was feeling for truth and honest - was when Kevin died. You want to know why? Because there was work to be done. I had to stand on my own two feet alone, with no help from either of my parents growing up.

You all have life so good. So how about you all

shut the fuck up and realize that life is hard!!

You should go buy cyberlox from none other than moi's friend's Maria and Danielle !

Short Falls (about 15yds) - $30-35
Long Falls (about 30yds) - $60-65

Clip in Falls (various sizes) - $5 or 2 for $8

There are a bunch of them that you all should bust and buy for. They have any colors you want. And if you know anythin about cyberlox, you'll know that they're usually in the $100-$300 range. So this is a pretty good deal. So yeah, I'll provide some shots and you can also look at the ones I've bought from them. They are also going to be making dredfalls for around the same prices. Do it guys, do it now.

I am Going gone until monday. Got a photoshoot, Kitten adoption to do, anddd selling tutus! =] tootles til late monday everyone.

This is how we act as a race? As human beings? Slaughtering the creatures God or Darwin or The Big Bang put us here to protect in the first place? I don't care what you believe in, whether you are a scientologist or a Catholic or atheist. It doesn't matter. You do not need to kill poor defensless animals for the pure fun of it. Sure, in the name of self defense I understand completely. Live stock, once again understandable. How is what we are doing to this earth even considered healthy!?

How is something like this even applaudable? Yet people stand and applaud a man with his big gun for shooting a poor creature for the pure sport of it? I don't see how you can even condon this as a respected sport! A respected sport is something you work hard to do and accomplish. Something like football or baseball, that's a true sport. Just sitting in a field hidden and shooting some creature from a distance with a gun is not something you earned. You cheated your way to this. You cheated your way with this one. Would someone bring this into light? Would someone go on CNN or some channel like that where you could sit down with a famous person and get their eyes to open to what we have done to this world. We are depriving ourselves of some of God's most magnificent creatures.

The hunters excuse for killing these animals is and I quote, "we are dealing with problem animals such as cheetahs, leopards, lions and so on." Okay last I checked, cheetahs and lions are now on the endangered list therefore no game at all even if they're not in a safe zone. Also, since when was a damn giraffe and zebra a "problem animal"? Once again, they seem pretty damn sweet to me. I mean they come up to you when you go to the zoo, and even on those trips through the African Plains with a tour guide. Cheetahs and Lions aren't as mean as Hollywood has made them out to be. No matter what the creature, hunting is wrong. And personally, what you do to an animal should be done right back to you. Shoot a giraffe in the neck? Fine, I'll just go find the psycho lady from Drag Me To Hell or learn how to curse you so you end up getting shot or something. That or I'll just wish the worst for you in life. And if you find this is humane and okay to do, then rot. Just rot.

Okay I'm posting this on all my accounts on each site so don't get too EIOGJEOWJGIWOEJLEWJL at me.

Michael Jackson was not a freaking pedophile, he was not a child molester. He never laid a hand on those kids. That BS drama started when that man followed him around with a camera; where Michael mentioned he gave his bed up to the little boy. Big effing difference people. Besides he was proven not guilty both times he was brought to court for this stupid BS reason. Also, where were the parents during all of this? Clearly they should get smacked upside the head in the first place for not analyzing the situation. Honestly give the man some respect in death. This world is so rude, so crued that no one in death gets the dignity they deserve. Even a convict on death row should be allowed to REST. IN. PEACE. Get it!? We don't say that only because of tradition.

Get it through your thick freaking skulls already people. Take off the diapers and pull on the big kid panties and get over yourselves. I'm not perfect, no one is. But look at all the songs he did trying to help better the world. Bad, Man In the Mirror, Earth Song! Or are you all just too much into your rap and rock; listening to people talking about shooting someone or murder, hm? I like my rap and rock too but seriously...I feel it very unlikely for this man to sit down with an honest heart write such meaningful songs then turn around and do something so terrible.

BESIDESS, this all sounds like personal problems to me. Seriously shut your mouths and give the king of pop the respect he deserves and has earned.

MJ died a few days ago and they think his doctor did it; who is now up and missing >>

Farrah died recently as well, pretty much the same day as MJ. She passed due to her anal cancer.

And now I hear at 7:45 this morning that Billy Mays passed away? Something due to asthma. That's all I know so far. THis is a very depressing time. I'm going to go make me a sammich, ice cream, tea and watch MJ videos allll day along with Billy Mays commercials.

I'm going to effing miss Michael Jackson. He was an amazing individual and he will forever be known as a legend in my book. Ignore the stupid media right now, let's give him the respect and dignity every individual in life should get when they die. They didn't give it to Heath, so let's give it to Michael at least.

R.I.P. michael jackson. We've lost too many good people recently. D:

Number Four: Andrea Yates

Andrea Yates - practically notorious at this point in time. She's most infamous for drowning her five children in their bath tub on June 20, 2001. After series of questioning, Andrea's lawyers pleaded a case of insanity brought on by postpartum depression and psychosis. Getting her off free from jail. Instead she was enlisted into the closest psychiatric home. Where to this day she continues to stay; showing multiple signs of depression and psychosis. The case caused for a lot of controversy; whether she got off or if she was truly mentally unstable. Why Number four? Andrea claimed to have done it to save them from a decaying world; as she put it. She saw no hope for her children in this life, therefore taking them upstairs one at a time. Holding their heads underwater. Imagine your last sight being your mother crying over you as she held your head underwater next to your dead brother...

Number Three: Susan Smith

Susan Smith had been a married woman who had an affair. Which lead to a divorce. She had shared custody of her two boys with her now ex husband; and still carried on her affair with this other man. When suddenly, one night Susan made a distressed call to the South Carolina police station. She said a black man had broken into her home, taken her children and her car; driving off. Susan was able to give police a description; right down to the exact brand of jacket this supposed man was wearing. The media were drawn to the case like flies. Both Susan and her ex husband made many press announcements. Where her Ex seemed very baffled and disturbed by the disappearance during the press interview. Though, Susan who had supposedly witnessed her children kidnapped, was oddly happy. Cracking jokes and constantly smiling. Even when making statements, she could barely keep a straight face. This rose police suspicion. The police tried to question Miss Smith, who broke down and started to cry. She asked the officer to pray for her children with him. When asked why; Susan said "because they're in the bottom of that lake". Police almost immediately pulled the truck out of the lake. An officer reported seeing a hand pressed up against a window.

Inside were found the rotting remains of both the Smith children. Police arrested and detained Susan. She was charged with Double homocide; she put in a plea of not guilty ( the eff? she totally confessed to it ). The detectives asked why Susan murdered her children; and when she was brought to the stand she finally answered this question. "----- and I were having difficulties. I did it for him." So in the end, she killed her two children - who's last images of life were their mother watched them sink in a truck to the bottom of the lake - for a man. Susan was conviced of all charges and was sentenced to 15 years in prison. She only served 34 months...

Number Two:  Aileen Wuornos

Aileen Wuornos. Abandoned by her mother at a young age. Before she had barely begun life as a teenager was use to selling her body as a prostitute. She was no stranger to the horrid side of life. But to this day people still ask what drove Aileen to committ the crimes she committed. Aileen is infamous for being one of the world's largest, most well known female serial killers. Her victims were 30-40 year old men. Much stronger and taller than herself. She would lure them out towards the woods, where she would offer up sex, etc. When the men turned their backs, she shot them, execution style. One to two bullets in the back of their heads. Aileen hardly fit the original depiction of the serial killer; therefore able to continue on with her wicked ways with no cops chasing her down. It wasn't until her friend and her were driving in one of the missing men's car did the cops catch on ( said friend reported her ). Aileen was arrested, and plead guilty to her crimes. Giving no time for a trial to occur. Aileen currently serves a life sentence in prison. Though her "legend" lives on in a movie entitled Monster which was a so called 'biography' on her life. Another proof in this world that women can do anything men can do.

Number One: Karla Homolka

Karla Homolka is easily one of the most hated women living in Canada currently. Karla Homolka is a Canadian woman...A Canadian psychopathic sex craved serial killer who attracted world wide media attention with the gruesome accounts of her crimes. She and her husband - Paul Bernardo - were convicted of manslaughter in the rape-murders of two teenage girls. Though only Paul took the fall; who confessed to countless numbers of rapes, etc. So why did Karla get off? Her confession was all it took. Karla confessed to the crimes, only if she could get off. In the confession, she reported the only way they could convict her was if they got their hands on the tapes that were created during the gruesome acts. Supposedly on the tapes were the tortures, rapes, and terrible slaughters of Tammy and another unnamed victim. Seeing as the tapes could never be found, Karla went free. Instead, her husband was convicted and tried for the deaths, rapes, and countless other crimes he committed. He is serving two life sentences. One for himself, the other for his now free Ex wife. Karla lives a private life. Now remarried and lives out of public eye in a remote part of Ontario, Canada. But the world - every time she is seen - is sure to remind her of the crimes she once committed and admitted to. Leading her to be one of the worst women alive.

SOOOOO I recently got a kitten from a rescue mission. He was the runt of his litter - and if you know know this which I'm sure most of you do - the runt of the litter is either abandoned or doesn't survive very long in life. Hugh is now about 12 weeks old, and pretty small for his size. Which is one of my worries for him. He's got about three scars I can't figure out how they got there and if they're infected or not. Which is also worrying me. One of them is on his paw over his claw. Which I figured was part of the claw of course at first. But then I noticed it went back a little too far and it was rather discolored. Then there's another one on his eye. Every morning I find puss in it. Which is really odd. It can't be eye boogers because they're only in that one specific spot. And I never find any in his other eye. ( trust me on this one, the cat wakes me up by head butting me at 5AM ).

I already saw a vet. His exact words to me were "we can't do anything for him until he reaches a certain weight." So in other words, they're not going to do anything until he's older. Which frustrates me. What if he has an infection? I'm not vet-worthy. I don't freaking know how to cure a kitty's pain. Hell, I can't even punish this cat when he sleeps on my lap top and chews on cords!

Soomeone seriously tell me what to do. I can't use any rulers, water, waffle irons or anything of that sort on him. He was a rescue mission. And so far I've figured out he was abused with all of those things. It takes me like twelve minutes to get him just to drink water. MEEEEH D; I don't want him sick. Help please? haha.

Today, in NC, two young men passed away. Those two young men were my dear friends; Jabari and Kevin. They let Chadius drive, who ended up speeding and ramming head on into a mini van coming from the opposite direction. Kevin flew out the window, hitting the cementer. He lived for three minutes after, and died before paramedics even reached the scene. Jabari ended up snapping his neck, and Chadius broke his hip bone and his face hit the glass of the front wind shield. Jayjay and Louis walked out of the wreck with ease. Only came out with minor scratches.

Jabari ended up slipping into a coma, where he was pronounced brain dead. His parents pulled the plug - took him off life support. Within five minutes, Jabari passed away as well. Chadius is now going to live with a ruined hip, scars all over his face and heart. For he must live with himself and the fact that now he has the blood of two of his dearest friends on his hands. Is that not punishment enough? Clearly the law does not think so; for he is most likely going to be sent to jail for this manslaughter.

It's time we stand up as a nation and stop recklessness and speeding. I drive a mustang; and am just as guilty as it as the rest of you. We need to learn from these tragedies that the best of people come out. But sadly only for that time. Let's keep the good in people up. Bring this nation back to the wondeful nation that is spoken about in the history books. I don't want to be the nation of Bush and racism any longer. I want to be that nation of good people and people who want to help the rest of the world. And not one man can do it alone; we have to work together. This event opened my eyes to this. When are you all going to wake up? Will it take a similar tragedy to strike you close to the heart?

I must live with this, and I am going to try and become better because of it. Can you all say the same?

R.I.P. Kevin Jones and Jabari! We love you all, and miss you both so much. But we know you are in a better place; and in God's arms. ( I don't care if you believe in him or not. I want to believe that we don't just rot in the ground. So kiss my ass. I don't want to hear your preachy bullshit on your religion ). Meet me there when I die, Jones. You're my Count Chocula and you always will be.<3

I got the new Calvin Klein perfume set.

One

Eternity

Obsession

I am in love with every single last one of them. They smell heavenly. And today I got Euphoria. Which is just simply amazing. All of them are worth every penny. I'm planning on saving up for the new Ed Hardy perfume. Just finished up Ren Faire which makes me so sad. I already miss everyone. I have about twelve different photoshoots planned so yeah. I'll try to keep up with here. Damn I haven't been on in forever....

http://allshapesandsizes.ning.com/

The Perfectly Flawed Campaign is to show women and men everywhere that we are each beautiful in our own, unique way. Imperfections are not things that consider us ugly or hideous, they are things that add to the originality of us. We should not view pretty and beauty through models or magazines, we should view it through the mirror and the positive influences in our lives. Life has become too dependant on how the TV depicts us and how our friends see us. Each and every person out there - no matter the flaw - are beautiful people.

It's a matter of holding hands ( in a metaphorical sense ) and rising above this. If we chose to live for today instead of dying to become something we are not, then we can possibly help make this world a better place by the end of the year. Perfectly Flawed Campaign's goal is to reach 200 signatures on a petition of the world to show that everyone may be flawed, but because of those flaws we become beautiful people. True beauty is not decided by the eye of the beholder, but by the person they are beholding. You yourself have the power to tell another person if you are lovely are not.

Conceive, Believe, Achieve -- Make a list of your achievements, no matter how small (i.e. passing an exam, getting over an ex, new job etc.) and be proud of what you've done. Now what's left for you to do?

Sign the petition today, join the site. Help show the world that we are all perfectly flawed.

With love, Emmii Eileen.

If you're such an asshole to go around making fun of someone with ANY kind of disorder or disease; then that's all you are.
A pure, unrated asshole. I hate to be so blunt but my god do you all seriously have no brains? Okay, someone who is born with harlequin ichthyosis is still a human being. Oh look, they're skin grows 10 times faster than yours? Whooptie-freaking-do-da-day! It doesn't give you any right to go around calling them in human or an alien. So they look different than you? Yeah, if you had it I wouldn't make fun of you for it.

You cannot help what you're born with. And to be honest, most of the children born with harlequin syndrome die within the first few days. Since the skin is constantly breaking away, you lose a lot of body fluid and it causes you to die. So it should give you even more reason not to make fun of these people. The two girls over in England who are now what? 13 and 15 have it but they look every bit like you and I.

Simple as this, keep your mouth shut and learn some-friggin-thing before you go around calling someone a freak for having an incurable skin condition. And if you still make fun of this condition, well all I can say is I hope your kid gets it, karma's a bitch, morons.

So as of recently as I've mentioned, I do model for a living (though I'm planning my career in forensic psychology).  I joined MM just to help further the career I have in order to pay for my college - and so far I have three things coming up. Two photoshoots, and a run way audition on the 21st with Avanti. Wish me luck for all three.

Not to mention, people are pathetic for trying to say I have 'implants' and I am 'lying' about being a model. I see no way of gaining anythin from lying about something so serious and why would I want implants when I complain about having any size bigger than an A cup CONSTANTLY? Some girls are just really idiotic. Really.

Oh I'm just so excited! Last saturday I got to go up to Cat Angels in Cary, NC to look at a cat that was found coming out of a dumpster. Well I got up there and turns out this cat is now completely blind. Not that I'm complaining, she was just the sweetest cat you would ever meet. She's terrified of you at first, because she can't see you. But what she has to do to figure out who you are, is use her claws and teeth and tounge. After I laid on the floor with her for a while, we decided to toss this little ball with a bell in it around. She should be a tennis champion; Aiko the cat I mean. She would swat this ball and knock it to the other side of the room.

This is the sweet girl. Her eyes are just dazzling. I'm not kidding you one bit. When the light hits them, they grow this splendid tone of metallic green. While I'm at it, I'll mention her back ground story.

"This little girl was found trying to climb out of a dumpster in the rain in western North Carolina and made the long trip to Cat Angels. This is made even more poignant by the fact that Aiko has macular degeneration; when she came to us she had only 2-3% of her sight. That is slowly waning, and soon she will be completely blind.

She is a sweet little girl with a loud purr who loves everyone, and she does not let the fact that she has very limited vision slow her down. She likes to play, *loves* to be cuddled and is a very brave girl. "

I cannot wait to bring her home! She's beautiful, sweet, charming and I just love her. I always wanted a cuddle cat. And she loves being carried like a baby. She gives you kisses and love bites and nudges.

I am beyond tired again today. This has to be the third week in a row now. I've been doing nothing but studying for EOCs, and my last day is monday. Thank god. I'm exempt from the other two tests that everyone else has to take. That's what I get for doing my work unlike everyone else I suppose. I didn't feel like putting on make up or doing my hair today either; and the fact I finally have webcam on my computer makes me smile. I spent the weekend with my good friend Emma. From friday all the way to sunday. Friday I was over at her place then she came over to mine. We were just doing some christmas shopping together for our other friends; so we could bounce ideas off of eachother. We'd been planning this for over two weeks so now that we've gotten it out of the way, we're both a little more relaxed.

Once we got all of that done, we decided to just go ahead and watch some movies. Went through blockbuster, and rented Feast II: Sloppy Seconds and Death Tunnel. I have to admit, we could not stop laughing at Feast II. I mean look at the title; it's Sloppy Seconds. So that in itself sets it up to be a dumb movie. And that's exactly what it was. Even though all the characters were more of the punk rock/hard core style than the ditsy blonde; i have to say that the ONLY blonde was pretty hardcore. I mean this girl did everything to survive and she was by herself. She's the only good part of the movie. Oh and yeah, two main parts that made me laugh. One of the monsters farts, and then another monster rapes a cat. WHAT WAS THAT ABOUT!? It was fun to watch; and Death Tunnel was just stupid. Don't even bother with that.

Woke up today and didn't feel like doing much. Until Emma said she'd style my hair. Which I ended up letting her do. She's always done a good job with messing with my hair.

Now we're off to White Oak! Ross and T.J. Maxx. Some cheap shoe shopping. I'm pretty happy, I blew more than half my pay check this week on some Ed Hardy shoes. They were on sale! Definately worth the some hundred dollars I paid them for. They're beautiful. Christian Aguiliera is definately one of my favorite clothing designers. He's a mad French genius! Go buy some Ed Hardy, he's incredible like that.

I have to go to this stupid Equity Ball thing Wednesday. It's an awards ceremony. Emma will be there too but I need someone to come with me. I'm thinking about taking my good buddy Matt with me. Or Roy if he wants to go. But Roy just doesn't like dressing up; which is something we have to do. Man, I hate awards shows. This is the third one I've been to in  a month. Not loving it. You in town, you wanna come with me?